I'm nobody's slave

I'm affraid to work. Work. In my dictionary, work means slavery. Because you work for someone else. You work from morning till night. From 8 to 8. From Monday to Friday. Sometimes Saturday. You work harder. They pay you a little more. You work even harder. But then, you loose respect. Respect to your self. Your life is only work. You don't have social life. But then you fool your self. You may say, "I am OK. I have money." Wrong! That's a lie. You're a slave damn it! That's it. Nothing more. Sad? Yes. Sad but true.

I don't want to get into this rat race. You try to run faster and faster, but you don't get anywhere. They may give you a gold platted rat race. But you're still getting nowhere. You're still a slave working for food and pride. Pride. Huh! This is what I call a false pride. Proud to be high ranked slave. A slave that has a gold platted prison bar. So what?! You're just another tools that can be replaced anytime. Funny huh? Sad but true.

One day, they stop giving you food and pride. You get mad. "Why me?" Yeah. Why you. No. You should ask: "Why not you?"

I don't want to fall to this satanic loop. I want to be free. I'm nobody's slave.

Life is a process of becoming

"All of life is a process of becoming," says Myers,author of The Pursuit of Happiness and Intuition: ItsPowers and Perils, "From womb to tomb, we'redeveloping. So we can, at any time, reshape ourfuture."  

Happiness

When asked, "Why happiness is considered tobe 'hard-wired' or genes related". He replied, "It's rather like our cholesterol level -- genetically influenced, yet also influenced by our habits and attitudes."  (David Myers, PhD, the John Dirk Werkman Professor of Psychology at Hope College in Holland, Mich.)

Source: www.health.msn.com

Impossible

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.

Impossible is not a fact. Its an opinion.
Impossible is not a declaration. Its a dare.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary.
Impossible is nothing.

Source: Adidas Commercial

Predictable

I like things to be predictable.
I like my life to be predictable.
Predictable means that I always hold the ace card.
I wish I can always live my life like this.

So far its been OK.
I have control over what I really want to achieve.
Control over how I want to behave.
Control Over what I want to concentrate on.

But then, there's still something missing in me.
I want what a lot of people have.
They call it "Love". With the big L.
Through Love they complete each other.

Here's the thing.
When I try to involve myself with this "big L" thing,
I can't hold the ace card anymore.
I'm not in control anymore.
Things become unpredictable.
Its not only what YOU want. Its what YOU TWO want.
I just can't do this.
I'm not sure if I'm ready for this.
It seems too complicated.

But somehow, there's something inside me that keep calling out.
I'm not sure. Maybe I'll be ready when I'm ready.
I just need to concentrate to whatever I am doing now.
I need to focus on my future.
But wait! What is my future anyway?

May be its OK to have a little unpredictableness.
May be its the beauty of "the big L" all about.

I don't know.
I'll just wait and see.

Life

You were born.
You learned to walk.
You learned to talk.
You learned to read.
You went to school.
You went to highschool.
You graduated.
You went to college.
You fell in love.
You got a job.
You got married.
You got children.
You retired.
You died.

Is that it?
Is that life all about?
I honestly question the purpose of my life.
Should life be complicated?
Should life be simple?
What is the purpose of life?
Tell me.
What should I be?
Can anybody teach me?
Can anybody guide me?

I don't want to be average people.
I don't want to be just another Joe.

Predictability

Bonabeau, the author of Swarm Intelligence, on the interview with O'Reilley Tech talk, said that his “swarm intelligence” algorithm capability is still doubted by the industries because of lack of control by his algorithm.

The swarm intelligence is an emergence behavior where there is no leader in the community of agents. However with the collection of the community or group capability, these agents become highly intelligent on solving a NP-hard problems and its ability to solve dynamic problem where the optimal solution always change with time.

In my opinion, there's nothing in this world that we can't predict. However with the shallowness of human intelligence, it makes it difficult to predict an event that occurs in the present or in the future.

Let's take a look at two obvious examples. First case, people now can predict how long it take me to drive from point A to point B with several given information (speed of car, distance, traffic flow, weather, accident, etc). Another example is when a dishwasher in a restaurant tries to predict the income of the restaurant owner for that night. He can predict the flow of money with information that available for him: the number of plates he washes, the type of plates, number of glasses of wine, the weight of the garbage bag at the end of the night, etc.

In the first case, if we take the assumption that the traffic is empty and no accident on the way, and we have the information for continuous speed during the acceleration, and deceleration (or say constant speed), and the exact distance from point A to B, we can predict exactly of what time we will arrive at point B. At the second situation, we can also predict exactly the income of the restaurant owner that night if we put a lot of assumption, for example the type of one plate correlate with one type of food so we can predict the flow of money on each plate the dishwasher guy washes. In real life situation, we can always predict anything if we know all information given. The problem can be easily solved by if-then-case or rule based method. The more we know about the rule the more we can predict correctly.

Men are stupid compares to another power that creates this life, the ultimate all knowing in to every detail things that occur in this world. Einstein comment on a scientist about unpredictable movement behavior of neutron on an atom: “God never play dice”. Few years later another scientist proved that Einstein was right. Everything is predictable in this world. The only problem is the shallowness of human intelligence.

Quote from Seabiscuits

"Appreciation comes to a man who won't give up.
Even when live beats him by the nose.
But, hey, everybody loses a couple.
It's either you packed up and go home, or you keep fighting."
Seabiscuits - the Movie